With all of that said, I truly feel great physically! I am more tired and a bit uncomfortable in the evenings, but after a full night's rest, I feel rejuvenated and ready for the day. I haven't had the thought "Get this baby out of me! I can't take it anymore!" I really feel ok. Of course, I'm ready to know how my labor will begin...ready to know what my labor will be like...ready to know how the delivery will go...and ready to meet my new son! However, I'm being patient and trying to stay positive through some of those "down" moments that I've had the past week. We have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning, and I'm hopeful that I've made some progress in preparation for the big event. I did plenty of walking today with my friend Dalia, her daughter Ava, and Noah today at the Children's Museum, which has brought on many more contractions than what I've had in previous days. Maybe just maybe they are getting me somewhere. Either way, God willing, we will meet this little guy no later than May 16th! Then we can reveal his cute little name, share his birth story, and start our lives as a family of four!!
Ryan and I have really been on a high in terms of our connection in our marriage. We have both put a lot of effort into taking care of each other the past few months, and I know it has helped us build a foundation as we prepare for the big transition that lies ahead. I don't know that I've ever felt closer to him in the 10 years we've been together! I can't wait to see him be a father to this little boy that has been growing and stretching in my belly for the past 40 weeks. I fell in love with him even more after Noah was born, and I know I'll be smitten all over again, taking our relationship to the next level. How exciting is that?!
As for Noah, my sweet boy, I get choked up thinking about how much he means to me. It's truly like seeing your own heart exist outside your body. He has the sweetest, most tender soul, and at the same time, his energy and spirit are both so happy, silly, and playful! I know he is going to be a great big brother, and my hope and dream for these boys is that they are the best of friends, forever and always being in each others' corners, loving each other, and taking care of each other. You know, when you have kids, I think it really gives you the opportunity to prioritize what you want most out of life. And I have to tell you, if at the end of my life, my boys love the Lord, have been safe from harm, and are happy with their lives, it will be all that I've ever wanted and more. Noah, I'm hoping someday you'll read these blogs I've written about our lives together - you, me, and your daddy - and I hope you can feel how much I love you, that you know I would do anything for you, and that you understand how easy it would be for me to give up my life for you. I love you and your daddy beyond anything I have ever known, and I can't wait to move into this next stage of life together, with your little brother baby brother joining us in this journey we call life. And as for you, little baby boy, keep growing strong, and know that your daddy and I will love you, take care of you, and provide for you in every way we know how. I can't wait to meet you!